Holy shit, I saw the sun rise this morning! I don’t think I’ve ever been up early enough to see the sun rise… Like actually see the fucking ball of fire rising in the horizon… Well, actually, as I’m currently learning in my Astronomy class, the earth is rotating as it orbits the sun… So really, I saw the earth rotate as it orbits the sun! AWESOME!

Ha ha… Yeah, I like my Astronomy class. For more reasons than 1. I actually do pay attention. To the teacher too! Ha ha! Oy, what’s wrong with me!

But yeah, I do like the class. I find myself looking towards the sky more often. Whenever we get to the park with Ricky, I always yell out, “Oh look it’s the MOON! How Beautiful!”


I’m caffeinated! Leave me alone!

But oy, it’s going to be a long day today. I get to have a meeting with my boss’ boss’ boss!!! Fun! I just have to turn in some additional paper work to her and see how everything is going! The anxiety of the wait is killing me! It makes me want to eat naughty foods!

Which, I’ve been really good about food this week! Nothing too crazy! As a matter of fact, I haven’t had Chinese food since like three weeks ago! It makes me sad. I walked by a Chinese food place yesterday and was sad that I just passed it by! Sigh! I want CHINESE FOOD!

But no, I’ve been good! I’ve been eating fucking cereal left and right though! It’s not because I’m poor! I’m actually doing ok with my finances… It’s just that I really like Coco Krispies!

So get this, I went to Vons with Ricky the other day to just buy some Veggie Patties, Milk, two boxes of Coco Krispies and that’s it… Ok, well, we walked by some chips, and they were on sale, 2 for $6… So I just bought one bag! But you can’t just buy chips and not buy dipping sauces! So I splurged: I bought one spicy bean dip, one cheese dip and salsa… Then onward we went. Got the milk and the patties.

I reahced the cereal isle, also known as “HELLS YEAH” isle, and lo and behold, Coco Krispies is on sale! So a box usually cost like $3 or$4 and some change, but on that particular day it was $2.99 each, so I was gonna get just 2 boxes! Well, Ricky noticed the “Buy 5 or more and save” tab… If you bought five boxes of Coco Krispies, each box would be $1.99 as opposed to the other price! So for four more dollars more I walked away with five boxes of COCO KRISPIES! HELLS YEAH!

Running last week went pretty well! We went on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thrusday and Saturday! We were supposed to go on Sunday, but I was too hung over and tired to go! I just wanted to stay in bed all day! So I did!

I laid in bed almost all fucking day on Sunday! I only got out to get food and go to the toliet! But other than that, I was a lazy bum!

Ok, I showered and eventually got out towards later in the night… But that’s a whole other story… One that involves sex. HA HA! You get the picture!

Speaking of which, it’s always good to catch up with people! Nice to know what’s been going on with them and give a chance to clear up any off hand information! Ha ha! LOVES IT!

Anyways, I feel like I’m waiting for something exciting to happen! Geesh, I need to stop waiting and start taking more action. What’s the saying, “grab life by the horns…” or something like that! Horn! Whatever! The point is, I need to be more outgoing and start taking the initiative!

I always say that I’m a walking paradox, and I’m not even kidding, but it’s so true!

Ok, so for instance, this morning: There’s a guy… Eye contact has been made and adverted in the past. It’s one of those instances where we’ve noticed each other but never really spoken! I see said person every so often.

Today was a little different. Not only did I get to sit closer to said person, whose name I don’t know, but I totally saw a reaction.

Ok, so usually when I see… I’m just gonna call him J (I’m not even kidding, a lot of the people I’ve dated or hooked up with (mainly hooked up with) had names that began with the leter J!!). Anyways, whenever I see J I’m usually wearing regular clothes… Jeans, tennis shoes, regular tee, and my jacket… Today however, I decided to dress up! I have a meeting with the boss like I mentioned earlier, then I have something in Downtown and then I have school. So I figured, I’ll try to make an impression.

So I’m dressed all nicely! Pretty nicely actually, I like these pants, the make my ass look so much better different then when in jeans…

Anyways, I’m pretty sure (at least I hope I’m not imagining things) that I made an impression on J. Not only did I see him looking, at my ASSet, I felt his eyes as I was sitting, and I saw him looking in the reflection of the window! Ha ha!

But I didn’t do anything about it! I could’ve made eye contact, I could’ve smiled, I could’ve pseudo flirted or flirted… But no, I was too chicken shit to even glance over for more than 2 seconds! GRR! What is wrong with me! Do I really shut myself down so much! Am I that scared of commitment or whatever!  Ha Ha! OMG, that’s a whole other story!

But see, I’m not a shy person, but I am a shy person! It’s weird… I’m shy, but I’m outgoing! I don’t know how to flirt, but I can be very flirtatious. I can never tell when I’m flirting actually! Which sucks!

Ricky has told me that too! And I’m texting back and forth with Gaby about the topic and she said, “Bitch be oblivious!” OMG! HA HA!

I don’t know… I have a dorky way of flirting I guess. It’s easier to just conversate and go from there than an actual approach like Joey from Friends: “How you doin’?” Ough! I could never do that! Or use one of those cheesy lines like me and Said were making fun of the other day: “are you tired, because you’ve been running through my mind all day long!” HA HA!

Ok, enough about my lack of flirtation skills! I’m gonna go finish my coffee and get back to “work”! Tomorrow I’ll have another chance to not flirt with J and totally be oblivious to that fact that I can and could flirt with the guy! GRR!

Whatever, I have a date with a “client” tomorrow anyways so I’m covered! LMAO! OMG, what a whore! LOL!!!  No, it’s a pseudo date! Whatever… Ha ha!