There is a quote that I really love. It comes from one of my favorite movies. And I like to believe that our favorite movies say a lot about ourselves, so I won’t divulge which movie this is, but I’m pretty sure that most people that read this are smart enough to figure it out. I love this movie, for various reasons. For it’s strong yet weak characters. For it’s facade each character gives, because all characters are perceived as one thing, but are really another… But I love this movie more for it’s ending. It’s not a happy ending, and although it seems very self-fulfilling prophetic prophecy of me, and to quite possibly to believe that my ending can be like so, as realistic and optimistic as I may be, I still prepare for the worse. Hopeless? Yes. Romantic, I can honestly say I don’t know how to be.

But I’m rambling, so the quote is as follows:

“as if you had no choice? There’s a moment, there’s always a moment, “I can do this, I can give into this, or I can resist it”, and I don’t know when your moment was, but I bet you there was one.”

Apply it as you wish. To however/whatever you want to apply it to. I know what I apply it to myself. We all have our moments, our points of decisions. I completely understand that we all have our undecided/spontaneous/rely on instinct moments(I know I have). But I have to admit that we also have our moments of choice right before we fall, right before we give in. There is a moment right before we decide to fall. There’s a moment before we decide to let go. There’s a moment when we tell ourselves to just go with it and fuck the consequences.

As much as we like to believe in our naivete, we all know and remember that moment.

And it comes full circle. We get fucked by the consequences, or we get fucked by the cause and effect. Or, we get our happy ending… It varies really. I know there’s no happy ending in my book, but that’s a whole other story…

I’m not one to deny any of this. I will be the first to admit that I can be as naive as a groundhog on groundhog day… But I do refuse to move forward. I know I’m not nearly as strong enough to ignore certain things, but I’m strong enough to walk away. And maybe I am a coward, and it has been easy for me to walk away before. Yet still, I don’t regret it.

Change happens. Life Changes, People Change, Everything Changes. How you handle that change, is all up to you.

Sometimes, as hard as it is to admit it, and harder as it is to convince yourself to do it, You really do have to say good bye. Au revoir, Adios, and take care. Our paths are never done, only just started. I’m always excited to just keep going. And seriously, why wouldn’t I be? Just around the riverbed right? =)

(P.S: Nara by E.S. Posthumus and  some other songs by Antonio Pinto were probably the best soundtracks to listen to for me to write this.).

It’s another time now. =)